So I think i've gotten over my last rant, so im healed lol. Um so ive been listening to my definition of great music a lil Jason Mraz, John Mayer and Maroon 5 (ok, ok, i threw in some BSB as well and some Neyo) and i found this song by Jason Mraz, and it just really made me think, its all the small things that really and truly count and though i was really pissed off a couple of days ago, ive come to terms with certain things, and i've realized i can't let small, insignificant, self-loathing people stop me from being me, and i cant let people like that come between me and my love so i've decided to live out my drama career here at USC (yeah i know im incredibly weak). So back to this poem lemme just copy and paste it:

Life is Wonderful

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful

As i think about these words i start to really see what jason was saying, you know what we always look at the end result but we hardly look at what must be done to achieve that end result. And so meeting people like i've met has made me a better person, im not as naive as i was even on January 1st 2009. I am not even close to that person. In fact i've seen parts of myself and it is because of the people and experiences that i have come into contact with over the past couple of weeks, this really is a whole new experience for me. But you know what in the end, all the steps that i had to take to get to the top of the world are behind me, because climbing each of those steps has made me a better person, and i now have a deeper appreciation for the long flat stretches of road at the bottom of these stairs, but i climb on, because i know the view at the top will be so worth the sacrifice, and honestly what better time to sacrifice unnecessary people than now, as i set out on the journey of a lifetime, this is is right here, i am about to start yet another adventure, and i'm incredibly excited because i figure there gotta be something greater out there for me!

Over and out!