Ok, Im not going to apologize, or promise to write all the time, instead I am going to VENT!!!!!! So the truth is I have prolly had the worst 3 weeks of my college experience, and i need to get this shit off my chest, so to whoever is reading this, there are no apologies, however this is how i feel right now, i may not feel this way 2morrow or in a year ( i really hope i dont actually) but here is my soul.

The most freaking awful shit happened on the drama mission trip! Now, i know that "the devil" is always trying to hold drama club back, but honestly this was the worst. There was no order, no function, and absolutely no leadership whatsoever on this trip. There was little love, and a complete lack of respect for the hard work and endurance that people put up with for those five days. AFTER ALL THE SHIT THAT WE ENDURRED, THE PEOPLE IN CHRAGE DIDNT EVEN SEE IT FIT TO SAY THAN YOU, GOOD WORK NOTHING! WTF? Who the hell do you think you are to treat people that way. And then you walk around so freaking proud, and with your nose so high in the sky that you cant see anyone out there. I'm sorry i thought this was supposed to be a team effort.

Now let me clarify some things, i owe drama club alot for the person that i am today, i know that people don't believe this, but the truth is i am a very shy person, however, drama forced me to throw all of my inhibitions out of the window, cause you cant be insecure, or shy or afraid in drama club, and i honestly thank all the people who have carried it this far.

However, i will say this i am not shallow, when  you think that people accept certain positions, then damn well suck it up and do the f-ing job, because honestly, you said yes, and thus u neeed to step up. Why the ---- should i give up stuff for this freaking club when no one else has to sacrifice we are freaking team, if everyone scarifies the burden is less! That is just plain old common sense! Or at least i thought it was, but then again a friend of mine recently told me that common sense is not an inherent trait but instead we learn it, so i guess some people learned and others didn't so where does this leave me? Shanna Carin Emmanuel at this moment does not give a shit!!!!! Great i had to say that. Now i have a lot of ppl within drama that i care for and i will continue to care for, however i will not break my back i will act like everyone else, as painful as that will be for me  (believe me this is taking all the acting skills i have) . I CANT PRETEND TO NOT SEE THE ABSOLUTE BULLSHIT THAT GOES ON ANYMORE. This is it! Thus:

My Farewell to Drama

You were my friend,

You were my love,

You were my gift from God,

But To have you

I had to give up so much

And for what?

I can't carry you alone.

Two of us can't carry you

Three of us can't do it either

13 people were elected

13 people were needed

I'm sorry but we must part

For you are not a failure

Nor am I!

But we have failed you!

I'm sorry, but theres comes a time

No matter how hard we've worked

No matter how many hours we've been together

All good things must come to an end

And so we must part

It sucks on such bitter terms

But I'll never forget you

And who knows, we just might meet again

Sometime soon I hope

And to the people who did this to us I leave you these words, first spoken by the great ALL AMERICAN REJECTS:

When you see my face

I hope it gives you hell

When you walk my way

I hope it gives you hell

You'll find someone else who's worth a damn

Just as well

But just like you, they'll be a fool

Hope it gives you hell...

Over and out.....(for now)