So I know its been a while again, this has honestly been the toughest week of my academic career. But it is Sabbath and I am so happy for that. I get to rest and concentrate on the important things in eternity. I find it so difficult to do so at times, however it is essential. Also this week among all my troubles I was reading my quarterly, and i was faced with a question that first grappled me at the beginning of the semester. How Could Jesus be wholly human and wholly divine? How is that possible? I mean I used to think that it wasn't possible I mean Jesus had a constant escape all the time. He could just be like "Forget this, and walk away from us all." As humans we do not have that ability, we can't call bread into existence when we are hungry, we can't simply heal ourselves. And Jesus could, so how could i follow him? How could i ever be like him? That's not a good enough example. And then this morning I woke up, and i prayed in my heart and asked God to tell me if I should go to church today or not, and the first time i asked him for a sign He said no, so i asked again, and again the sign was not shown. So i decided I wasn't going to stay in my bed sleeping, but I decided to study my bible, and last week I watched 3ABN and really enjoyed it. So i turned on 3ABN again, and there was the Sabbath school lesson being done. And it was in this 1 hour segment, that I discovered the humanity of Jesus. For the first time it was laid out in front of me. Pastor Steve Allred  answered my question, and many others in that one hour. He began the lesson by discussing a story of 2 young men who decided to "Become the Christians they say they are" And by that I mean they decided to depend wholly on Jesus, so they gave up all that they had, and became homeless, and thought that they would literally live by faith alone. And Pastor Allred said, just because they had the ability to pick up the phone at any time and go back to their great lives doesn't mean that the experiences that they had were not real. And that is so true, they were still hungry and cold, and hot, and ashamed. Just like Jesus, just because He could leave, did not mean that what he was feeling was not pain or hurt or hunger. And my eyes were opened. Pastor Allred pointed me to Isaiah 53, and in that chapter I see who Jesus knew he would be, the portrait painted was intense and sad and depressed, yet it was inspired by God, and Jesus was sitting right there. I imagine when we don't know what it is like to feel hunger, we can't imagine, and we probably figure that we could take it, its not so bad, but then we get it. I imagine that might've been what Jesus thought sitting in Heaven. And that could be why when it came time to be sacrificed he cried out to his father so much, and even God the father could not fully understand what Jesus was going through. And so Jesus truly was wholly human as well as Wholly divine.

Another important lesson that i learned was that Jesus was the best example, and not the impossible one like i once believed. You see in Hebrews 5:8, 9 you see that like me Jesus learned obedience from his suffering. OMG! that is so true, Jesus knows we can get through that temptations because He got through them, but not without a fight. I see the love of Jesus as a wish that I don't ever want to lose. I see so much more, and i know now why God told me not to go to church today, because if i had to hear this, i had to  hear this from Pastor Allred. It is so strange, and people often don't understand how important it is to listen. And I pray that God would make me a better listener, because I find that I have become more of a fighter, and that is not the kind of people God wants to be his leaders.

So, world, learn to listen to that Holy Spirit, and don't forget that our main agenda is heaven, and everything else needs to find a place other than the one that has been assigned to God.