Ok, so you kno how badd grades are supposed to motivate ou to do better? Um its not working for me, doesn't that really really suck? cause i think it does. But on the other hand I think I;m in love with Adam Levin from Maroon 5 (cud this be the end of tom? Stay tuned for more lol). Also I watched Boondocks tonite on the episode of BET. It was really funny, and for some reason I find it to be very true as well. BET really does pollute the minds of the black people who watch it. It makes them think that all that is important is who they associate with and the brand of clothing that they wear. It is really sadd. My dad never let me watch BET as a child and tho I got a rap as being the "white girl" i think that i am a lil more open and aware than the average black american. I dont really spend time focused on those things. altho i admit i do waste time as much as the next person, but i always try to check up on what's going on in the world. and i buy clothes cause they look good and not because p. diddy says they look good. I think that it is essential that we as the generation that will soon become parents begin to think about what we want our children to get out of this world. And honestly, i want my children to be educated, and wise, and to know that there are people out there who are suffering and i want them to have a burning in their hearts to try and help those people. I don't want them to be superficial and fake, and self-centered, because that is not why we were placed on this earth. I think that there are times that we waste so much time, energy and resources on the most retarded things. I sit here writing this, and i think about some of the things that i used to and still think are important in my life, and i sigh with disappointment in myself, and my judgement. My heart still aches when i pick up a newspaper and learn about some of the problems that people my age, Baden younger have to face everyday. Prostitution, rape, genocide knock on their doors, and here I am wasting time and not studying for an exam, when these people are wishing they cud attend school, or at least have the opportunity to have even a single fear-free idle moment in their lives. I know i cant save the world, but still id like to know that im at least making it a lil better you know? well lemme not leave you on a ridiculously depressing mode....I'm starting to think about my next topic, and Im thinking...HOW MUCH DO I CHANGE FOR YOU APPROVAL....i still have to think of a song but hopefully ill get to write either 2morrow or Wednesday but rehearsals are getting really intense so... i may be falling behind.

Good nite world..