So the title is out of my favorite song, from my favorite musical - Seasons of Love - Rent, which by the way is ending its 10 year run this year on Broadway and Im very sadd not to be able to see it. So how do i measure my life? I mean this is a pretty serious question. Do I use mistakes? Accomplishments? Failures? Friends? Pets? this blog (lol)?

Life is so fragile and yet we all use it like it will always be there I think that is because we are mortal beings that crave immortality. In every way there are people who live life on the edge, however, i don't believe that they do this because they want to die but instead the accomplishment of doing something that can steal life away probably makes them feel like they have a small taste of immortality.

So how did this come about today? Well for one thing, we had to sacrifice rats today (again) and as I watch miguel take life from Apollo, it made me start to see how little my life is prolly worth, just like that rat. i mean who am I that i have the rite to live to be 21 years while this rat was barely 50 days old? And what about all of those sick kids who will never reach 21?

I think that we should all show a greater appreciation for the lives that we have. We should not waste a moment (tho i found that i do that alot), we should embrace all of our emotions as they occur, the hurt, the anger, the sadness, the laughter, joy. They should all be experienced, because in the end it is those times that will count the greatest. The times when we laughed and cried, and screamed. I think that life is about living, and we should stop always trying to live a particular life, and instead just live our life. We should stop overanalyzing everything, stop anticipating, and assuming (cause we all know what happens when we ass+u+me lol) and just L-I-V-E!

Well world its been an interesting one, not really sure what Im gonna do now...but i hope it will be worth goodnite!