So Its been a regular day, spent it with a friend. And it made me think about forgiveness for some reason. How do I forgive? Now don’t get me wrong I already know I have a problem with forgiveness But i also have this hypocrite way about me when it comes to certain people whom have done wrong things to me. For the most part I would completely forget that a person exists when they do shady things to me, however I have been placed in particular situations where in which that was not possible. The truth is i find that although I may feel a certain apprehensiveness with the person I can still talk to them openly. I guess there are times when in the heat of the moment I feel a particular what but after really thinking about what has went on maybe that person didn't hurt me as I believed that they did. Is that even possible? Is it possible that in one moment you feel and betrayed but after time has passed, and you assess the situation it seems that the person didn't actually hurt me. So why do I still feel like there should be space between us? And how do I stop feeling this way. A couple of months ago, i was reading this book that said that you have not forgiven a person unless you are able to place yourself back into the same situation with that person. The same situation? The one in which i was hurt? No way! But what happens if you do and you don't even notice? I think that happened with me, and the person and I are slowly getting back to the point we were at before the betrayal. It's weird, I hope that God shows me exactly what concept of forgiveness I need to talk, because it is strange to think that I can't forgive someone. And I'm afraid that unless I learn to do so I could end up in the other place lol.

Well world that's it for today! i hope that the truth will be shown to all of us!

PS. -  i just started watching this show called weeds, and now I'm starting to think....selling weed isn't such a badd living lol, well who knows what the future will bring?